I want to shout!

Everybody needs someone or somebody to cry on and listen to your stories that you want them to catch it up with you.. that's great if you have some. Me, everyone knows I'm silent and don't even talk to anyone elses unless they're gonna talked first.. ("I'm a One question, One answer! period"). My sister (Older than me) used to asked me about my friends.. but then I just answered her back, Ok lang.. Every time she asking me about my EX-friend, My mind get so Blowing up and and my blood seems to burned out!... but when I'm alone, I got to think of the past.. I wanted to tell her the truth.. I just regret the moments that I didn't told her about what happen to us... Until now, It's still a hint for my family what has really happen to our friendship although my dad knows a little bit of it but not the rest.... My mom got curious about me, sometimes, I have to hide to them coz I don't want HER to be a gossip involving my family... My problem (although it's not really a big deal for them) should be out of the house.. I keep my problems for myself.. sometimes I hide it and just ignoring them but I can't deny the fact that sometimes I was thinking of it, Sometimes I pictured myself through my phone cam with unidentified smiled or should I say forced smiled.. hahaha! I just laughing at myself as if I'm crazy.. texting somebody on my phonebook pretending I'm very happy... this blog is enough to shout out what's on my mind and what I feel right now.. I'd cried not because of my problems, I've cried for someone but I won't regret that, coz That was me.. I've cried because of my emotions comed out... I have too many things on my mind that I really don't understand whenever I'm alone.. I'm always finding things which can entertain myself though.. movies are enough but whenever I start to watch it, my eyes are staring on the screen but my mind got another world, in short I can't concentrate not because I don't understand the movie I am watching though, but something's bothering me... I keep on hiding it still, I wanted to shout it like I want to go the Island myself and shouting there "HELP!".. but I am afraid of, no one can hear me.. Although I'm happy now, but not totally 100% it seems... why I'm posting this?..trip lang!, coz I don't have someone here to talk with and to listen to my damn stories though, singing and listening to music is enough of me..problem?,.. I'll keep it to myself.. My family and friends finds me like a book but difficult to read, they maybe right but I told them to be a GOOD READER.. this is all I know for this time, sometimes the past doesn't just catch up with,... but it haunts you though... this maybe the reason, why some things have to bothered me all the time.. :) have a nice time reading this!.. :) sorry to bother you.. I know It's nonsense though.. :).. I don't have any idea what to post here right now, but this is all I know.. hehehe! :)

StiLL be..

Pictures could be deleted and erased.. but memories will not change and still be there...forever!.. this should be our day..It should be a celebration.. but It's not anymore.. I missed You! :( for you STILL ME

An OaTh a year ago.. (BroKen Promise)

A year ago (the same date and time).. Someone had promised me one thing . It was the day of conversation between two new friends.. A semestral break has started that time.. All I do on that vacation; watching TV, eating, hanging out with my brothers, Texting...o yeah! we became textmates (me and that someone).. and then we became very close as if we know each other that time.. until it was boring for us to have a discussion bout nonsense topic of all time.. I ended it up asking her, "Do you keep secrets?".. and then she answered me back, "If you trust me, then I'll do!. why?".. "I do have secrets and I know I can trust you, I'll tell you all my secrets but... You tell me yours too.." I replied...
But she refused to tell me her secrets and she asked me what's my secrets... I told her everything because I trusted her.. in the meantime, She asked me, "Can I trust you?"... then I replied "If you think you can trust me, then yes I can"... She gave me a situation where she has her "CURIOSITY" of something else..I was shocked, I never expect that she was on that situation (could not be on detail here! it's COMPLICATED..clue: not a DRUGS or any prohibited hobby ok!.. ITS ABOUT RELATIONSHIP!). She txted me again "hoist! Are you still there?.. Shocked ka noh?".. Then I answered "huh?..If You want to avoid that thing, you can make it, unless you wouldn't and give it a try but don't you dare me to support you coz I don't like to see you with that situation not because I am not a friend but you have to see the outcome if you're gonna do it".. As I was replying her that time, she send me a message like this.."You're right!, don't worry I can control myself pa naman! sinabihan ko na xa na wag na xa manligaw kc ala man xa pag asa at di tanggap ng barkada natin"... then I replied "Mabuti naman para maaga pa alam na niya na hindi pwede".. then she textbacked "pero inlove man daw xa sa akin! at gusto nga daw niya iprove at pumunta ng boarding house para manligaw kaya lang andun si ****T baka magtaka rin un.." nxt message "Eto kasing c J*** eh simula nung nging close kmi dami ng nalilink at nacurious tuloy ako!"...then I enden it up by texting her.. "IKAW bahala sa LIFE mo, kung anu gusto mu edi gawin mo pero tingnan mo muna kung anu mangyayari pag may gagawin kang hindi makakabuti sau at kung un man makakapagpasaya sau edi masaya na rin ako for you, andito lng ako.." then She answered "Tlaga?.., thank you.. wag ka mag alala nakocontrol ko pa sarili ko at saka curious lang naman ako at hindi ko naman cnabi na FALL na ako dun"... then I told her "PAGXURE OI!"... then she replied "Secret lng natin toh ha!..".. then i answered "OFCOURSE!".. then after a minute she texted me "From now on magbestfriend na tayo!.." at first we call each other Bestfriend but I thought It was just a "TAWAGAN", as days passing by.. we called each other "BEST" ..we became close friends as if we were siblings and true real friends.. Everytime we're not together, we always looking for each other as if we were worrying... a txt like this "BEST WER KA?.."."DITO AKO OFFICE, SAN KA NA best!? BILISAN MO JAN!"... although we were three (3) close friends (pangatlo c INDAY).. me and her (SOMEONE) took ourselves to be best of friends for real..we always holding hands and embraced each other everytime we're going in and out to school and as time goes by, we made a memories that NOBODY could ever take and replace those CRAZY but BEAUTIFUL moments of a true and real friends.. I wish it wasn't just a very nice memories.. I wish that I could bring back those but I know I can't.. This day, OCTOBER 18, was supposedly our celebration.. every 18th day was our Bestsary (that's what we call it!).. We're exchanged gifts to each other during our bestsary..My first gift was a pink teddy bear and we call it "CHIX" (Un gusto nia itawag kc We call Girls as CHIX that way!haha!) but it wasn't our bestsary, anyway I gave her a PILOT Ballpen (wala kc xang ballpen sa exam nun! tapos ballpen nya puro nag tatae tae hahaha!) during our first bestsary and she gave me black BRACELET (gawa daw nya) that was very sweet for a us to have.. a night of our bestsary that time she txtd me, "Tnx best!.. You're my bestfriend forever and I will keep you for the rest of my liFE.. luv u best koh! happi bestsary" (this message is still on my inbox 2).. I answered her " Tnx din best, Luv u too!.." ... I'll always keep those memories in my heart because she made an oath and a promise.. But I'm not expecting anything to happen in the future coz we both know it's very complicated and impossible to have those back, although I missed her very much (I can't deny it..yah! am not hiding it coz it's true).. This day is supposedly our AniBestsary! (wheeww!)..I was just wondering if she's thinking of this day like I do.. tsk3.. 3 nights of dreaming that she hugged me and hold my hands again (yes, I know she has a scar or PEKLAT on her hand..un ang nkita ko sa panaginip ko..hahaha! pero ask nyo kung meron talaga xa peklat o wala..hehehe)., I thought it was real but gosh I wake up saying.. "ai, akala ko totoo!".. tsk3.. I will never regret those days.. most specially OCTOBER 18, 2007!.. :)..

***Naremember ko lang ang araw na ito kaya wag na magreact mga against jan ok..:(
*** Kung mabasa man nya ito, edi mabuti..hahaha! :(
***Sana hindi na lang xa nagpromise.... :(
***She Broke it... for someone! (grrrr!).. She made me blind and looked dumb for all those times.. :(
***I'd protected her for nothing... She'd lied not even tell me everything.....and explain what's on her side but, instead She Left us (me and inday)...
***I've trusted her..despite of everything she has done!..ok na unta di ba! :(
***I moved on! but I can't help myself to remember everything specially every 18th day of the month.. :(

this time around.. my new fave.. :)

***hmmm, middle of this night.. my sister wasn't home yet.. and I can't sleep, not because I'm all alone this time, but because I'm having an insomnia again.. they told me to drink milk.. yeah! I had tried it so many times... but it doesn't work for me..hahaha!..lol!.. what I did?, I'd watched the paramore concert in an online video site.. and guyz, there was their song caught my attention really.. I've searched the lyrics and then downloaded that performanced of them.... Just nothing.. I was just feeling good when I heard and watched it.. It makes me sing whenever I played it on my winamp player..hahaha!.. ok.. this is it na.. no more good talkings..hahaha! :D

*** The title of this song is "WHEN IT RAINS"..
*** I Love watching those lovers there kissing and it's so sweeeetttt"...heheh :D
*** Hayley has a great amazing voice!... :)
*** to all my friends out there, listen to the lyrics.. naay matamaan!..wahaha but in fairness, it's so lovely..hahaha!.. peace y'all!

AvRiL LaVigNe - Slipped Away (Live in Budokan, Japan)

*** This song is very sad.. isn't it?... hehe but it's very special to me... coz it makes me very emotional when I am all alone in my room... :(
*** It reminds me the past behind..char!..wahahah! :)
*** this song is for my long lost friend... wherever you are, just stay there! lol!..hahaha.. :)

FriEnDshiP

There are many valuable things in life, but friendship may be one of the most important. To live life without the experience of friendship, is life without living. Human interaction is a necessity to survival, but developed friendships are essential to the successful well being of anyone. Based upon Webster's Dictionary, the definition of a friend is, "A person whom one knows, likes and trusts." But to all, Friendship has no defined terminology. The definition of a friend, and friendship, is based upon one's own notions. Many people look for different characteristics in friends, things that may be common in nature. There are many different types of friends that one wants or needs. There are Five different categories for these friends. It is best in nature to recognize and appreciate various kinds of friends.

The first type of friend in the friendship is an acquaintance. This is the beginning to all basics, and deeper friendships. This is the person with whom, is only known on a pure, and basic level. The insight to this person's life, is merely an observation from a person's perception. Usually, these are the types of friends that a person may meet in school,. . .
In the foundation of life long friendship, tears will be shed and the bond developed between two individuals is one of the closest relationships one can have.Finally, the last type of friend is a Significant other, many would argue with this, but actually it is a bond or form of friendship. Secrets are kept and smiles are a natural part of the relationship. They may have grown up next-door, or with these types of friends, are friends that are most cherished and respected. It is developed and formed at a partnership. It is the person with that is felt to be comfortable with, even at worst. They may have been a buddy in Kindergarten, maybe the little girl who was the playground bully, but now the protector of all.

Friends make true friendships possible, and with that, It makes life possible. It could even be a friend of a friend, someone that is seen frequently but the extent of conversations rarely going into depth. The person, who fulfils that role, will share many common bonds. They may have been a highschool friend that dressed the same, or had the same classes. To have this, they must share similar traits. t work, local hang outs, or somewhere that is frequented often. They are valued as a friend, and cherished as family. These types of people, will be there through the thick and thin.Life is so short that we need someone to share our thoughts and feelings. Definitely, a thought would arise in our mind asking who it could be whom we can trust so closely. Answer might be who someone closes to you, but who? Parents, brother, sister…..! Apparently, it hardly comes to anyone’s mind a “true friend”. You are no nearer to true friendship than if you choose them for commercial reason. Besides who are you that you should be setting a price upon your friendship? It is enough for any man that he has the divine power of making friends, and he must leave it to that power of making friends. In this essay I will try to give my points of view toward friendship.

Friends are essential in our life just as food is essential for living. Moreover, it is essential to determine their friendship as we analyze the contents of the food before we eat. Friends and their friendship play a great role in everyone’s life. It is a gift that we offer because we must; to give it as the reward of virtue would be to set a price upon it, and those who do that have no friendship to give. We would meet a lot of people in our life, from those we choose friends and among those, we make our best friend.

source: www.myessays.com

GaNgster hiGh!.. movie review

***this movie is great... I just watched it yesterday.. sad but have many lessons to learn, "Stand For YouR friendship".. TruSt youR very TRUE FRIENDS... and lastly, be brave and save yOurself from danger that you put on and don't forget to save your DIGNITY and RESPECT to your own personality... :)

The movie goes with Sang-ho and his friends Jae-gu and Chang-bae create a boys soccer club called "Tigers".
Sang-ho, whose main passions are hitting the books and kicking a soccer ball, meets Su-hee through Jae-gu. Su-hee is polar opposite from Sang-ho. While he is the model student and athlete, Su-hee is a tough but pretty problem student. Their differences inevitably draw them together. But Su-hee belongs to Jong-suk, the leader of a teen gang calling themselves "T&T". The Tigers soon find themselves engulfed in a battle with T&T. When Sang-ho's friends become seriously injured during a fight with T&T, Sang-ho makes a choice he can't go back on..

watch:PaRt 1 PaRt 2

Source http://www.koreanfilm.or.kr

Lier's goes to HeLL

O yah! that's true... yah I've lied... but NOT totally "GOOD as SHE was on Me"... :) right?.. am lying but seconds later, I screwed up...hahaha! and am not really GOOD at it like SHE did it before and done it with all the things I made and done for her.. then suddenly we screwed her up like asking "whoa!, whhhaaaatttt?????"... how?..when?...why?.." that's all I can say!... but "SHE was really a GOOD... LIER!.." like putting a knife stabbed!! not on my heart, but on my BACK!... just funny little hurt huh?.. and am not affected of losing this person.. but really feel very betrayed, because after all the things I've done, I suddenly realized that I was... with the Devil in disguised in all those times!..well tnx for all those... LIES!....had a wonderful memories!! grrrrrr...(hayst!)... >:(

I was Poisoned....

I was (recently) admitted this morning 2:30 AM, at the hospital.. just a kilometers away from our house.. because the doctor said I was food poisoned.. I never told my friends or texted them cause first, I have no load! hahaha! (poor!), 2nd my phone was busted and left on my room.. I never told them, after I got home at 8 AM the same day.. not becoz I thought that they'll gonna worry about me, but I don't have to coz It's not important them to know it alright :) and anyway I'm alright now.. And this situation bothers me because I promised and texted my friend (ELENOR) yesterday, that i'll visit her in school today but I broke it..."SORRY TOL!"... coz my mom didn't want me to go outside the house.. so I texted Elenor that I'm tired and I have to accompany my mom.. gosh I've lied(hahaha!).. oh yes.. i feel very sad coz I never told Elenor, even Paul and the rest of the group about what happen to me coz they also having their busy career and doing their busy project and I don't want them to worry bout it.. (char!) ... I thought this day will gonna be our "LAAG TIME"... atay jud!.... kinsa makabasa ani (kaila lang namu) secreto lang nato ok..hahahahah!!!!.. :) have a nice hour!... :) ...o_O..

My Tawaw FrieNdzz

hello huyz!.. these are my friends who means a lot to me... I'm considering them as my siblings and close friends to me.. I maybe not telling them all my secrets not because I'm not trusting them but they know how much i appreciate all their good deeds and all their cares for me.. (drama!) but that's real.. They're one of my strength that I'm having for now.. without them, I should have cut wrist and not telling them all my weakS.. I am happy whenever i'm with them.. I am always laughing out loud whenever they moving and making me laugh and the way they teasing me for the things I'm not used to be.. so why I am featuring this?.. because these are the concept of my blog.. about my friends.. about us.. about friendship we built.. about the things that we'll never expect in the future... about the things that made us shocked from the past.. and all of the things we used to know.. anyway, i want to mention their names here... bihira lang ako mamili ng "TRUE FRIENDS"... the three in that first image, its me the one whose with cellphone, ELENOR (the middle one) is one of my close friend that I am considering as my Buddy.. she's my close friend and I used to call her "TOL" and "tawaw".. She knows everything about me. we became close friends a year ago, I can say that she's having a bad mood syndrome sometimes.. but I used to it cause she's my buddy.. We sometimes had a fight but not totally a big deal for us.. cause we solved it a minutes later..hehe!.. MARILOU ( the third one) is my very very close friend of mine.. I really love this girl.. even if sometimes I don't understand her mood.. I used to it,. She is the MOMMY of our group... She's definitely good but totally Bad if you gonna mess her up... She's very caring to me.. We became so close when she'd back to school a couple of years ago... we used to be each other in school because she and I had no close friends that time that's why we always to be with each other.. :)

<-- Joyce, the girl with full of joy every time we meet in school.. although we were not close during school days, she totally have my trust and friendship for real.. we were classmates, we know each other faces and names but not personal as it seems... we became close when I get to visit my friend (ELENOR) in their "TAMBAYAN".. the crystal links... as I always to get there, as always we got knowing each characters... I used to call her "Madam Joycee" and I myself didn't even know why I am calling her that way..hehehe but for me, it's just a respect... really... :) Joyce for me will always be a friend to me no matter the distance we had now.. :)
<--BorGe, the man here!:) we never talk nor even close during school days.. hahaha lol!.. but this man made me so funny and laugh even if his jokes are so out of the world!..hehe :) I called Him "TOL" (Bro or sis).. he's one of my few friends that I'm calling "TOL"(that way).... he's so funky and crazy.. but He's my idol coz this man is so smart.. I remember telling him "ToL buti pa ikaw na lang teacher namin sa elective''.. heheh because he's definitely has a quality to teach us and knows evrything we wanted to know in school. no offense to my professor there! but "Wala jud mi naibalhan sa mga topic nimu!" hahahah.. di ba TOL?..hehehe kabuangan man but that's the truth..heheh
<--the two guyz here.. karlo and Rotsen.. these guyz are also my closed friends in school and until now.. we always keeping in touch no matter the distance we had right now.. for me, i am considering them as my big brothers.. :)
Paul (right image) .. i call him also "TOL".. he's one of my close friend too.. I am also considering him my Big bro in the group.. :) we became close friends when I used to stay in the "Tambayan" of them.. hehehe.. I always remember our walking trip around roxas and bonifacio to have a conversations and had some talks about somebody that hurt us.. (chaka!)..hehehe I'm also happy when the three of us (with ELENOR) were talking nonsense and having some good trip.. :) This friend of mine is so kind to me and i found him very loyal to his girl of his dreams... (can I mention her here Tol?)hehehe.. :) he called himself "Stripe Boy".. who's the girl of his dreams?.. he called her as "PIANO girl"..hehe :)
The last but not the least.. I have Mamot here. (left)... I am considering this girl as my "Madam" and close friend to me, though some situations could not be on details here.. I would rather hit somebody's face than to break my respect with this girl.. "if someone has gone, somebody would come and that's definitely HER.. and She is better and deserves my friendship" everyone in the group knows the situation about this issues we had on her "TWIN" but we ignored that coz we totally rule the friendship we have right now..... i consider her as my Sister.. not by blood but through the bottom of our hearts.... :)

*** That's how I value them.. I love my friends and that's why I'm featuring them here!.. :)

SuPerJaneLLe

This is my friend Janelle Tan. When I was still in school, we neither talk nor just smiling back at each other its because we don't know each other yet.. Until my Friends and I, noticed that this girl always using the SUPERMAN Blue bag (i Guess?).. So WE decided to code named her as SUPERGIRL.. Until the time when I graduated, We Became friends through Texting (but not always) We call each other as "TOL" just like my other close friends call me that way..TOL means for us as Siblings (bro or sis).. She (janelle) never knew that we call her a SUPERGIRL not because she's a hero for everyone but she's definitely much look a like with that image, ika nga eh "habang tumatagal lalo na xang ngiging kamukha ni SUPERGIRL".. I was amazed when I saw her fs profile full of heroes and images of SUPERGIRL then we come to think, If JAnelle knew her code name to us.. hahaha! lolz!.. but that made me so hmmmmm happy coz aside from became friends with this funny Supergirl I've met, Some of my friends wondering how we Became close (char!)... and talking about this cute friend of mine, she has many ADMIRERS, as girls and boys thought..hehehe.. you are wondering why I'm posting this article about her?.. its because I'm watching a SUPERMAN movie right now, the classic one.. where SUPERGIRL meets her cousin Clark Kent.. so I remember asking her (janelle) about what article should I Post on my Blog, she told me "MUKHA KO" (mY Face!).. she told me to post her face but I knew it was just a Joke. :) but I come to think of what I'm gonna Post here.. Yes!.. this is it.. I REMEMBER HER.. My friend Janelle "SuperGirL" Tan... :)

A FamouS ShoE of All-TimE!

Chuck Taylor All-Stars, or Converse All-Stars, also referred to as "Chucks," ' are canvas and rubber shoes produced by Converse. They were first produced in 1917 as the "All-Star," Converse's attempt to capture the basketball shoe market. They were not particularly popular until basketball player Chuck Taylor

adopted them as his preferred shoe. He was impressed with the design so he became the shoe's leading salesman. After proposing a few changes to the shoe, the shoe got its current name and Chuck Taylor's signature on its ankle patch. Although classic black is the most popular, Chuck Taylor was himself known to prefer unbleached white high-tops (known in his day as simply "white").

Consumers demanded more variety from the shoe - particularly with respect to colors in order to match basketball teams - so colored and patterned shoelaces became popular to complement the two colors, black and white, available before 1966. Afterwards, more colors and styles became available. Low-top or "Oxford", high-top, and later knee-high, versions were produced. More materials were offered for the construction, including leather, suede, vinyl, denim, and hemp. Some versions of the shoe were offered without laces, held up instead by elastic. These new versions of the shoe were also co-designed by Chuck Taylor, just before his death in 1969.

Chuck Taylors saw another upswing in popularity in the early 1990s. Some may attribute this growing trend to a higher awareness of such fashions as grunge -- an outgrowth of some of the same rock-oriented youth cultures that have kept an affinity for the shoes since (at least) the late '70s/early '80s punk and new wave eras.

The recent increases in numbers of colors may also have led to the market for Chuck Taylors growing, due to various owner- or factory-based customizations of the shoe through color, use of stylized shoelaces, and through drawing or writing on the rubberized parts. The customization of Chuck Taylors is highly popular with the rock scene, especially, but not limited to, teenage girls, with many drawing/writing on the shoes, putting mismatching laces in the shoes, or wearing odd shoes (often two differently colored Chuck Taylors, or a Chuck Taylor and a different shoe) -- all styles fairly common among wearers of the shoes over the past three decades. However, the original trend of wearing the low-rise shoes (in white) and writing on the rubberized part can be traced back to early as 1972, with the height of the fashion amongst junior high school girls being between 1973-1975. In addition to writing on the shoes, young girls in some areas also interlaced ordinary jingle bells onto the laces, making jingling sounds whenever they walked down the corridors of their local junior high schools.

source: www.wikipedia.com, www.yahoo.com

This is ME/Gotta Find you by Demi Lovato and Joe Jonas

I Love This Scene so much.. this is from the movie Camp Rock, of Disney's Original Movie!.
HopE yOu GuyZ will Love it too... sounds good and I Love the artists... :)

OuR LoGo!

A ninja Symbolizes our "BraVery" Friendship, No mattEr How hard the struggles and Challenges would come against us.. We still stand for our friendship!.. thE symbol on the ninja's forehead is our Friendship RinG... :) Tawaw is the name!.......... :)