Being An Introvert.. (I am)

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Being an Introvert..

I don’t have any idea about being an Introvert. I don’t exactly know the meaning of it, not until ...somebody just told me I am.

I googled it. I found out that I am an Introvert. It’s not because that I love being alone or I preferred to be on my own but .. Ganun talaga ako kahit nung bata ako. Di ako nakikipag laro, unless may mang iinvyt or someone to convinced me to play pero madali ako mabored. Madali ako sumuko sa isang laro o bagay na nauumpisahan ko. I'm a kind of person na mahiyain pagdating sa activities lalo na sa schools. Kahit alam ko kung paano gawin ang isang bagay o gampanan ang mga roles sa mga activities. Mabilis ako matuto at minsan kapag may tinatanong ang mga teachers at walang nakakasagot, I only whispered the answer to myself.

Hindi naman ako matalino. Never kong ikinatuwa na maraming nagsasabing matalino ako, but the truth is di ko nararamdamang ganun ako. i only used Logic. Yung bang nilalagay ko ang sarili ko sa mga bagay na kung ano man ang kahihinatnan ng isang pangyayari.

just for example na lang pag may mga problemang dumarating sa buhay ko. I just kept it to myself. Ayokong may nakaka alam sa mga pinag dadaanan ko. Lalo na kung tungkol sa LOVE.

Minsan sa buhay ko nagkaroon din ako ng pag ibig. yung pers taym na mainlove. Di ko ma express o masabing Love na talaga yung feelings ko at that time. Di makakain ng tama dahil lagi mo iniisip yung taong nagugustuhan mo. Lalo na pag malapit kayo sa isat isa.

FRIENDSHIP and LOVE (The Past Behind)

Hi buddy, its been a long time din nang huli kang mapadpad dito. Dati rati lahat ng hinanakit at emosyon mo, lagi mong sinasabi dito mismo (pero huling blog post  mo, dinelete mo para di mo maalala ang lahat, ang totoo lagi mo iniisip ang mga yun!). Pero ayos lang. Ano ba ang meron sa atin ngayon?. . teka, kamusta ka nga pala? Di ka mapapadpad dito kung di ka maayos. Chill lang sabi ni tawaw.  Ilabas mo lang until you can breathe.

Phot not mine. ;)

“Taking on SEVEN years

the holy ghost had left alone

Test my arms, kick like crazy

I've been trying way too long

only push the way off to fight you

Now I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm not sure

Getting off my chest

the story ends…” –SAOSIN

Yan ang sabi sa kanta na dati mong pinakinggan na paulit ulit ulit sa tenga mo. Di mo ata akalain na 7 years na pala ang lumipas at eto ka, hanggang ngayon, nandyan pa rin ang kantang yan na laging tumatatak sa utak mo na meron kang UNFINISHED business (tama ba ang term?) sa nakaraan mo. (Well, hindi lang naman yan ang mga kanta na tumatak during those times.)

Ganito yun, speaking of the past, naaalala mo na naman sya recently. This past few days, lagi ka nalang nangangamba sa mga pupwedeng mangyari hindi lang sa present day mo kundi pati sa future mo. At dahil 7 years ago, nang huli mo syang makita at makausap. Music, Novels, Movies, Social Networking, at kung anu-anu pa ang inatupag mo, makalimutan mo lang sya. But the TRUTH is, NEVER mo syang nakalimutan.

OO NA! NEVER ko syang nakalimutan.

At alam kong di ko sya makakalimutan. -_-

Ang totoo, Always! nasa utak ko sya.

Anung meron sa kanya?... No. Anung meron kami noon.

Now I will tell you. EVERYTHING. Dahil bago pa sumabog ang puso ko sa mga naiisip ko. Gusto ko ilahad lahat lahat lahat!

Moment of Truth

I don't visit my blogsite more often. Though I want to share my thoughts and what my daily doings to express it through here. Everybody is tired visiting their own blogs for they are too busy for some social networking and some are busy to their chores and even professional works.This day, I scrolled some musics/songs from my ipod and one of it got my attention to listened to it again. Last time I heard that song was about two years ago with my bestfriends.

The song was "MOMENT OF TRUTH" by FM Static. It got my attention to listened to it again maybe because I remember someone who was singing that song with ofcourse the backgroud music itself through my phone and with my other friend. The song was our fave that time and we love singing that song playfully after class hours for bonding of our friendship and forgetting the hectic deadlines of some sorts of damn projects in school that time , that's why everytime I heard that song, I always remember our moments in school, the laughs and the jokes part of it (career singing the song! lol!..hehe).. when we got separated (no communication, friendship is over for some unreasonable reasons hahaha!), I realized that the more we loved someone that closed to our hearts, the more we get hurt when we started to know everything the truth behind them. Truth is important when being close to someone or it might be your friend. Honesty and Trust is a part of it.

I hate lying to myself that I hate that person, no!.. the most part of it that I couldn't lie to myself was missing her and missing everything about our friendship. . . Indeed that I almost cried all night being myself that I had no shoulders to cry on not because I was weak and can't go on because of the truth that I couldn't accept and even curse it wishing that it was all a nightmare, but it wasn't so I have to moved on and it was over. Yet I am strong and those past really fades in our hearts but not in the memory. Everytime I think about it (the past), I just hate myself why I have to think about it,.. no reasons, but yes I missed her. I missed the way we were before, our laughs and even our cries at each other. Why I posted this emotional feelings that I am right now?.. It's because I want to share it to my friends out there that has been torned in truth and lies from their love ones.

I kept on telling to myself and even to my friends, there's no way to hate someone elses faults or regretting some decisions made by ourselves or choosing some wrong destiny or whatever you may call it, It was all ourselves! and not somebody elses faults. We just follow the truth in our hearts, maybe we can say we didn't use our minds, but what do we do? it was a heart matters.

Anything we hid to ourselves that we think of it as "need not" to show it, TRUTH will always come out whatever we do to hide it. Now as I listened to my ex-bestfriends favorite song a couple of years ago, I realized that In all the Lies she made from the past, our friendship was the Truth. :'-)

FriEnDshiP

There are many valuable things in life, but friendship may be one of the most important. To live life without the experience of friendship, is life without living. Human interaction is a necessity to survival, but developed friendships are essential to the successful well being of anyone. Based upon Webster's Dictionary, the definition of a friend is, "A person whom one knows, likes and trusts." But to all, Friendship has no defined terminology. The definition of a friend, and friendship, is based upon one's own notions. Many people look for different characteristics in friends, things that may be common in nature. There are many different types of friends that one wants or needs. There are Five different categories for these friends. It is best in nature to recognize and appreciate various kinds of friends.

The first type of friend in the friendship is an acquaintance. This is the beginning to all basics, and deeper friendships. This is the person with whom, is only known on a pure, and basic level. The insight to this person's life, is merely an observation from a person's perception. Usually, these are the types of friends that a person may meet in school,. . .
In the foundation of life long friendship, tears will be shed and the bond developed between two individuals is one of the closest relationships one can have.Finally, the last type of friend is a Significant other, many would argue with this, but actually it is a bond or form of friendship. Secrets are kept and smiles are a natural part of the relationship. They may have grown up next-door, or with these types of friends, are friends that are most cherished and respected. It is developed and formed at a partnership. It is the person with that is felt to be comfortable with, even at worst. They may have been a buddy in Kindergarten, maybe the little girl who was the playground bully, but now the protector of all.

Friends make true friendships possible, and with that, It makes life possible. It could even be a friend of a friend, someone that is seen frequently but the extent of conversations rarely going into depth. The person, who fulfils that role, will share many common bonds. They may have been a highschool friend that dressed the same, or had the same classes. To have this, they must share similar traits. t work, local hang outs, or somewhere that is frequented often. They are valued as a friend, and cherished as family. These types of people, will be there through the thick and thin.Life is so short that we need someone to share our thoughts and feelings. Definitely, a thought would arise in our mind asking who it could be whom we can trust so closely. Answer might be who someone closes to you, but who? Parents, brother, sister…..! Apparently, it hardly comes to anyone’s mind a “true friend”. You are no nearer to true friendship than if you choose them for commercial reason. Besides who are you that you should be setting a price upon your friendship? It is enough for any man that he has the divine power of making friends, and he must leave it to that power of making friends. In this essay I will try to give my points of view toward friendship.

Friends are essential in our life just as food is essential for living. Moreover, it is essential to determine their friendship as we analyze the contents of the food before we eat. Friends and their friendship play a great role in everyone’s life. It is a gift that we offer because we must; to give it as the reward of virtue would be to set a price upon it, and those who do that have no friendship to give. We would meet a lot of people in our life, from those we choose friends and among those, we make our best friend.

source: www.myessays.com

GaNgster hiGh!.. movie review

***this movie is great... I just watched it yesterday.. sad but have many lessons to learn, "Stand For YouR friendship".. TruSt youR very TRUE FRIENDS... and lastly, be brave and save yOurself from danger that you put on and don't forget to save your DIGNITY and RESPECT to your own personality... :)

The movie goes with Sang-ho and his friends Jae-gu and Chang-bae create a boys soccer club called "Tigers".
Sang-ho, whose main passions are hitting the books and kicking a soccer ball, meets Su-hee through Jae-gu. Su-hee is polar opposite from Sang-ho. While he is the model student and athlete, Su-hee is a tough but pretty problem student. Their differences inevitably draw them together. But Su-hee belongs to Jong-suk, the leader of a teen gang calling themselves "T&T". The Tigers soon find themselves engulfed in a battle with T&T. When Sang-ho's friends become seriously injured during a fight with T&T, Sang-ho makes a choice he can't go back on..

watch:PaRt 1 PaRt 2

Source http://www.koreanfilm.or.kr

My Tawaw FrieNdzz

hello huyz!.. these are my friends who means a lot to me... I'm considering them as my siblings and close friends to me.. I maybe not telling them all my secrets not because I'm not trusting them but they know how much i appreciate all their good deeds and all their cares for me.. (drama!) but that's real.. They're one of my strength that I'm having for now.. without them, I should have cut wrist and not telling them all my weakS.. I am happy whenever i'm with them.. I am always laughing out loud whenever they moving and making me laugh and the way they teasing me for the things I'm not used to be.. so why I am featuring this?.. because these are the concept of my blog.. about my friends.. about us.. about friendship we built.. about the things that we'll never expect in the future... about the things that made us shocked from the past.. and all of the things we used to know.. anyway, i want to mention their names here... bihira lang ako mamili ng "TRUE FRIENDS"... the three in that first image, its me the one whose with cellphone, ELENOR (the middle one) is one of my close friend that I am considering as my Buddy.. she's my close friend and I used to call her "TOL" and "tawaw".. She knows everything about me. we became close friends a year ago, I can say that she's having a bad mood syndrome sometimes.. but I used to it cause she's my buddy.. We sometimes had a fight but not totally a big deal for us.. cause we solved it a minutes later..hehe!.. MARILOU ( the third one) is my very very close friend of mine.. I really love this girl.. even if sometimes I don't understand her mood.. I used to it,. She is the MOMMY of our group... She's definitely good but totally Bad if you gonna mess her up... She's very caring to me.. We became so close when she'd back to school a couple of years ago... we used to be each other in school because she and I had no close friends that time that's why we always to be with each other.. :)

<-- Joyce, the girl with full of joy every time we meet in school.. although we were not close during school days, she totally have my trust and friendship for real.. we were classmates, we know each other faces and names but not personal as it seems... we became close when I get to visit my friend (ELENOR) in their "TAMBAYAN".. the crystal links... as I always to get there, as always we got knowing each characters... I used to call her "Madam Joycee" and I myself didn't even know why I am calling her that way..hehehe but for me, it's just a respect... really... :) Joyce for me will always be a friend to me no matter the distance we had now.. :)
<--BorGe, the man here!:) we never talk nor even close during school days.. hahaha lol!.. but this man made me so funny and laugh even if his jokes are so out of the world!..hehe :) I called Him "TOL" (Bro or sis).. he's one of my few friends that I'm calling "TOL"(that way).... he's so funky and crazy.. but He's my idol coz this man is so smart.. I remember telling him "ToL buti pa ikaw na lang teacher namin sa elective''.. heheh because he's definitely has a quality to teach us and knows evrything we wanted to know in school. no offense to my professor there! but "Wala jud mi naibalhan sa mga topic nimu!" hahahah.. di ba TOL?..hehehe kabuangan man but that's the truth..heheh
<--the two guyz here.. karlo and Rotsen.. these guyz are also my closed friends in school and until now.. we always keeping in touch no matter the distance we had right now.. for me, i am considering them as my big brothers.. :)
Paul (right image) .. i call him also "TOL".. he's one of my close friend too.. I am also considering him my Big bro in the group.. :) we became close friends when I used to stay in the "Tambayan" of them.. hehehe.. I always remember our walking trip around roxas and bonifacio to have a conversations and had some talks about somebody that hurt us.. (chaka!)..hehehe I'm also happy when the three of us (with ELENOR) were talking nonsense and having some good trip.. :) This friend of mine is so kind to me and i found him very loyal to his girl of his dreams... (can I mention her here Tol?)hehehe.. :) he called himself "Stripe Boy".. who's the girl of his dreams?.. he called her as "PIANO girl"..hehe :)
The last but not the least.. I have Mamot here. (left)... I am considering this girl as my "Madam" and close friend to me, though some situations could not be on details here.. I would rather hit somebody's face than to break my respect with this girl.. "if someone has gone, somebody would come and that's definitely HER.. and She is better and deserves my friendship" everyone in the group knows the situation about this issues we had on her "TWIN" but we ignored that coz we totally rule the friendship we have right now..... i consider her as my Sister.. not by blood but through the bottom of our hearts.... :)

*** That's how I value them.. I love my friends and that's why I'm featuring them here!.. :)

OuR LoGo!

A ninja Symbolizes our "BraVery" Friendship, No mattEr How hard the struggles and Challenges would come against us.. We still stand for our friendship!.. thE symbol on the ninja's forehead is our Friendship RinG... :) Tawaw is the name!.......... :)