Moment of Truth

I don't visit my blogsite more often. Though I want to share my thoughts and what my daily doings to express it through here. Everybody is tired visiting their own blogs for they are too busy for some social networking and some are busy to their chores and even professional works.This day, I scrolled some musics/songs from my ipod and one of it got my attention to listened to it again. Last time I heard that song was about two years ago with my bestfriends.

The song was "MOMENT OF TRUTH" by FM Static. It got my attention to listened to it again maybe because I remember someone who was singing that song with ofcourse the backgroud music itself through my phone and with my other friend. The song was our fave that time and we love singing that song playfully after class hours for bonding of our friendship and forgetting the hectic deadlines of some sorts of damn projects in school that time , that's why everytime I heard that song, I always remember our moments in school, the laughs and the jokes part of it (career singing the song! lol!..hehe).. when we got separated (no communication, friendship is over for some unreasonable reasons hahaha!), I realized that the more we loved someone that closed to our hearts, the more we get hurt when we started to know everything the truth behind them. Truth is important when being close to someone or it might be your friend. Honesty and Trust is a part of it.

I hate lying to myself that I hate that person, no!.. the most part of it that I couldn't lie to myself was missing her and missing everything about our friendship. . . Indeed that I almost cried all night being myself that I had no shoulders to cry on not because I was weak and can't go on because of the truth that I couldn't accept and even curse it wishing that it was all a nightmare, but it wasn't so I have to moved on and it was over. Yet I am strong and those past really fades in our hearts but not in the memory. Everytime I think about it (the past), I just hate myself why I have to think about it,.. no reasons, but yes I missed her. I missed the way we were before, our laughs and even our cries at each other. Why I posted this emotional feelings that I am right now?.. It's because I want to share it to my friends out there that has been torned in truth and lies from their love ones.

I kept on telling to myself and even to my friends, there's no way to hate someone elses faults or regretting some decisions made by ourselves or choosing some wrong destiny or whatever you may call it, It was all ourselves! and not somebody elses faults. We just follow the truth in our hearts, maybe we can say we didn't use our minds, but what do we do? it was a heart matters.

Anything we hid to ourselves that we think of it as "need not" to show it, TRUTH will always come out whatever we do to hide it. Now as I listened to my ex-bestfriends favorite song a couple of years ago, I realized that In all the Lies she made from the past, our friendship was the Truth. :'-)

My Tawaw FrieNdzz

hello huyz!.. these are my friends who means a lot to me... I'm considering them as my siblings and close friends to me.. I maybe not telling them all my secrets not because I'm not trusting them but they know how much i appreciate all their good deeds and all their cares for me.. (drama!) but that's real.. They're one of my strength that I'm having for now.. without them, I should have cut wrist and not telling them all my weakS.. I am happy whenever i'm with them.. I am always laughing out loud whenever they moving and making me laugh and the way they teasing me for the things I'm not used to be.. so why I am featuring this?.. because these are the concept of my blog.. about my friends.. about us.. about friendship we built.. about the things that we'll never expect in the future... about the things that made us shocked from the past.. and all of the things we used to know.. anyway, i want to mention their names here... bihira lang ako mamili ng "TRUE FRIENDS"... the three in that first image, its me the one whose with cellphone, ELENOR (the middle one) is one of my close friend that I am considering as my Buddy.. she's my close friend and I used to call her "TOL" and "tawaw".. She knows everything about me. we became close friends a year ago, I can say that she's having a bad mood syndrome sometimes.. but I used to it cause she's my buddy.. We sometimes had a fight but not totally a big deal for us.. cause we solved it a minutes later..hehe!.. MARILOU ( the third one) is my very very close friend of mine.. I really love this girl.. even if sometimes I don't understand her mood.. I used to it,. She is the MOMMY of our group... She's definitely good but totally Bad if you gonna mess her up... She's very caring to me.. We became so close when she'd back to school a couple of years ago... we used to be each other in school because she and I had no close friends that time that's why we always to be with each other.. :)

<-- Joyce, the girl with full of joy every time we meet in school.. although we were not close during school days, she totally have my trust and friendship for real.. we were classmates, we know each other faces and names but not personal as it seems... we became close when I get to visit my friend (ELENOR) in their "TAMBAYAN".. the crystal links... as I always to get there, as always we got knowing each characters... I used to call her "Madam Joycee" and I myself didn't even know why I am calling her that way..hehehe but for me, it's just a respect... really... :) Joyce for me will always be a friend to me no matter the distance we had now.. :)
<--BorGe, the man here!:) we never talk nor even close during school days.. hahaha lol!.. but this man made me so funny and laugh even if his jokes are so out of the world!..hehe :) I called Him "TOL" (Bro or sis).. he's one of my few friends that I'm calling "TOL"(that way).... he's so funky and crazy.. but He's my idol coz this man is so smart.. I remember telling him "ToL buti pa ikaw na lang teacher namin sa elective''.. heheh because he's definitely has a quality to teach us and knows evrything we wanted to know in school. no offense to my professor there! but "Wala jud mi naibalhan sa mga topic nimu!" hahahah.. di ba TOL?..hehehe kabuangan man but that's the truth..heheh
<--the two guyz here.. karlo and Rotsen.. these guyz are also my closed friends in school and until now.. we always keeping in touch no matter the distance we had right now.. for me, i am considering them as my big brothers.. :)
Paul (right image) .. i call him also "TOL".. he's one of my close friend too.. I am also considering him my Big bro in the group.. :) we became close friends when I used to stay in the "Tambayan" of them.. hehehe.. I always remember our walking trip around roxas and bonifacio to have a conversations and had some talks about somebody that hurt us.. (chaka!)..hehehe I'm also happy when the three of us (with ELENOR) were talking nonsense and having some good trip.. :) This friend of mine is so kind to me and i found him very loyal to his girl of his dreams... (can I mention her here Tol?)hehehe.. :) he called himself "Stripe Boy".. who's the girl of his dreams?.. he called her as "PIANO girl"..hehe :)
The last but not the least.. I have Mamot here. (left)... I am considering this girl as my "Madam" and close friend to me, though some situations could not be on details here.. I would rather hit somebody's face than to break my respect with this girl.. "if someone has gone, somebody would come and that's definitely HER.. and She is better and deserves my friendship" everyone in the group knows the situation about this issues we had on her "TWIN" but we ignored that coz we totally rule the friendship we have right now..... i consider her as my Sister.. not by blood but through the bottom of our hearts.... :)

*** That's how I value them.. I love my friends and that's why I'm featuring them here!.. :)