Being An Introvert.. (I am)

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Being an Introvert..

I don’t have any idea about being an Introvert. I don’t exactly know the meaning of it, not until ...somebody just told me I am.

I googled it. I found out that I am an Introvert. It’s not because that I love being alone or I preferred to be on my own but .. Ganun talaga ako kahit nung bata ako. Di ako nakikipag laro, unless may mang iinvyt or someone to convinced me to play pero madali ako mabored. Madali ako sumuko sa isang laro o bagay na nauumpisahan ko. I'm a kind of person na mahiyain pagdating sa activities lalo na sa schools. Kahit alam ko kung paano gawin ang isang bagay o gampanan ang mga roles sa mga activities. Mabilis ako matuto at minsan kapag may tinatanong ang mga teachers at walang nakakasagot, I only whispered the answer to myself.

Hindi naman ako matalino. Never kong ikinatuwa na maraming nagsasabing matalino ako, but the truth is di ko nararamdamang ganun ako. i only used Logic. Yung bang nilalagay ko ang sarili ko sa mga bagay na kung ano man ang kahihinatnan ng isang pangyayari.

just for example na lang pag may mga problemang dumarating sa buhay ko. I just kept it to myself. Ayokong may nakaka alam sa mga pinag dadaanan ko. Lalo na kung tungkol sa LOVE.

Minsan sa buhay ko nagkaroon din ako ng pag ibig. yung pers taym na mainlove. Di ko ma express o masabing Love na talaga yung feelings ko at that time. Di makakain ng tama dahil lagi mo iniisip yung taong nagugustuhan mo. Lalo na pag malapit kayo sa isat isa.

FRIENDSHIP and LOVE (The Past Behind)

Hi buddy, its been a long time din nang huli kang mapadpad dito. Dati rati lahat ng hinanakit at emosyon mo, lagi mong sinasabi dito mismo (pero huling blog post  mo, dinelete mo para di mo maalala ang lahat, ang totoo lagi mo iniisip ang mga yun!). Pero ayos lang. Ano ba ang meron sa atin ngayon?. . teka, kamusta ka nga pala? Di ka mapapadpad dito kung di ka maayos. Chill lang sabi ni tawaw.  Ilabas mo lang until you can breathe.

Phot not mine. ;)

“Taking on SEVEN years

the holy ghost had left alone

Test my arms, kick like crazy

I've been trying way too long

only push the way off to fight you

Now I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm not sure

Getting off my chest

the story ends…” –SAOSIN

Yan ang sabi sa kanta na dati mong pinakinggan na paulit ulit ulit sa tenga mo. Di mo ata akalain na 7 years na pala ang lumipas at eto ka, hanggang ngayon, nandyan pa rin ang kantang yan na laging tumatatak sa utak mo na meron kang UNFINISHED business (tama ba ang term?) sa nakaraan mo. (Well, hindi lang naman yan ang mga kanta na tumatak during those times.)

Ganito yun, speaking of the past, naaalala mo na naman sya recently. This past few days, lagi ka nalang nangangamba sa mga pupwedeng mangyari hindi lang sa present day mo kundi pati sa future mo. At dahil 7 years ago, nang huli mo syang makita at makausap. Music, Novels, Movies, Social Networking, at kung anu-anu pa ang inatupag mo, makalimutan mo lang sya. But the TRUTH is, NEVER mo syang nakalimutan.

OO NA! NEVER ko syang nakalimutan.

At alam kong di ko sya makakalimutan. -_-

Ang totoo, Always! nasa utak ko sya.

Anung meron sa kanya?... No. Anung meron kami noon.

Now I will tell you. EVERYTHING. Dahil bago pa sumabog ang puso ko sa mga naiisip ko. Gusto ko ilahad lahat lahat lahat!

When Boredom Strikes

at the office during work :))

In my recent activities before starting my job last week, I decided to concentrate on my doings so i could focus on my work. But when the day starts, it takes time for me to wake up so early every time my clock will alarmed, i always put it off or i set it up into next minute to alarm because i still feel sleepy and my eyes still closed. But when i started my routine and went to the office, it doesn't pressure my time there coz everyone there doesn't feel it too so what i do is that i find myself surfing on the networking sites to ease my boredom. i say to myself "so boring, why cant i open my internet on my unit, (well the office is not strict for the employees to have their time on the computer) i can do surf on the net every time when i don't have any task." the company assigned me on the mapping division so work for me there is not so hard because i had a background on the software they used for the mapping. 2 task in just an hour, so easy huh? :)) someone said to me how did I finished all the task in an hour because most of them finished 1 task in 3 days. i said i just gotta do what i can do and its not so hard to do it. when i finished task, there i go again, boredom strikes on me again. i don't have earphone for my music to ease my boring situation here. finding games and anything i could do on my unit to pass the time. singing myself out of tuned, oh yeah i could do so much better at my room. haha well as boredom keeps striking on me, there my candies on my pocket that i almost got it all and nothings left. i'm happy for my new job right now, I missed doing my salah (prayer) while doing work on the office but i don't forget the Name above Who gave me all these blessings. every time i leave the office to go home, half of my body feels tiredness and half of it feels "I gotta work so hard." after washing up myself, i would find myself to sleep but sometimes it takes loong time to find it because sometimes insomnia strikes on me. what i do after washed up is to get my laptop and had some movie marathon until i could sleep. before i sleep i do sunnah prayers to thank God for the wonderful day He gave me and Thanking Him also for the bad day that I handled in a good way. :) boredom for me is not sticking you all the way. you can feel it whenever you don't have anything to do with yourself. the things you can do when boredom strikes, you need to find and look for the other way to ease what you feel and love what you do because doing it with yourself is like entertaining your own happiness as well as your love ones. :)

mY wEAKNESS, mY STRENGth.

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In life, that i live. I grew up with fear of losing someone, that's my weakness which I considered in my whole life. I think i was gone crazy when seeing someone was lost in front of my eyes. i experienced it when i lost the man who raised me since i was born in this world, my granduncle, yes, i live with my beloving parents but my granduncle was the one who took care me and trained me in terms of religions and way of life. My "Amatuwa" (Grandfather in English), though he was just my mom's uncle, He looked for my mother as his own daughter since my mom was only 4yrs old when her mom (Amatuwa's sister) died. since then, my Amatuwa never leave once from my mom's side. until my mom got married my dad, having her own family, My amatuwa stayed and took care of us as his own grandchildren. God blessed my mom and dad a five children. I was the only one from the family who always looking for amatuwa all the time, well, it's because i was never asleep when he never took me to the "DUYAN" and sing for me his own lullaby. in our place, he was a famous "BLIND MAN", yes he was blind, He cannot see everything. But my amatuwa has a knowledge of everything, He taught me everything in this world. he always telling me stories as if i was watching a movie or series because when he started to tell stories, i kept on imagining what he has to tell because it was so good to hear about it,. the story of our ascendants, the story of the prophets, God vs. Satan, everything under the sun, you gotta asked him about anything and you will get an answer all the while. Well i don't know where he got that knowledge, but for me, He was the Homer of the family. he also talked about his love life, when he was just a teenager and still see the world, he never refuses to tell it. He was happy for the woman he loves, he just told the woman not to see him again for she was just wasting her time seeing a blindman like him, and he told her that she can find someone else better than him, can see her and even love her for the rest of his life. That was a very sad love story i had ever heard in my entire life. Though he was blind, he was happy with us, he told me to share evrything i knew in this world, the history, and if ever someone will asked about which love story i can share with, i will proposely and willing to tell everything about my amatuwa and his girlfriend. that woman never dissappear when amatuwa told her, but then they were remain friends, but the worst thing is, the woman stayed single as for this day though my amatuwa told her to get married, she never did it. well my amatuwa was a soldier from world war II in the philippines, but sad to say he never gets his benefits until the day he died in my arms. I hate this government. The veterans like my amatuwa do not deserved being abandon by the country they used to protect from the enemies. i really don't like the policy and the governance of this country. my amatuwas name was on the list of the veterans, but how come his name dissappeared when obama administration gave the veterans benefits? how was that?? my heartbreaks when my amatuwas get sick ans sick until we reside in davao. we expected for his benefits over and over again but sad part, he never got anything. until he died, he was happy,. he smiled at me like i will never seen smile like that again. he just told me, he cannot bring those money or anything in this world to his destiny. he cannot bring anything in his grave. his last words, "THERE IS ONLY ONE GOD, AND MUHAMMAD IS HIS LAST MESSENGER". and the wind blows in my face, i lost him. I was crying all day and all night. I missed him so bad. when time comes, in God's will i will share everyhting my amatuwa's told me. but for now, i just want to share what i felt for this day. everytime i think about him, I really get weak, but when i remember all his teachings i feel he was my strenght that he always telling me "MOVE FORWARD". losing that man in my life was the beginning of my fear of someone. and i don't want to let it happen again. I will do anything and everything to give my love and treasure very moment of our life to my parents. you cannot choose your parents. God choses parents for us. I have to love them not because they are my parents, but they are my weakness and my strenght. I love my family. people can come and go from you. but family stays for you forever in heart and mind. i do not know what i am gonna do without them. My amatuwa always telling me to love my parents, to protect them, even when they say it's good or it's bad for you just love them. Even i was not a favorite kid in the family, i always tell my self to love my family the way God loves us. sometimes i had hated my dad, and my brothers for let that happen when we lost amatuwa. i blamed them. but i realized, God has purpose for let it happen. That was the very weakest part of my entire life. But the words of my amatuwa came into my mind, "YOUR PARENTS ARE ALWAYS THERE, YOU LOOK FOR THEM, LOVE THEM." i knew it was that happen for a reason. but irealized though, somebody outthere are crying for losing there parents, but me, i have my parents so why am i crying like i lost them?, it's because, my amatuwa was the one who took care of me like his own child. He was my mom and he was my dad, when my dad and mom doesn't look for me. I was jealous of my siblings, but my amatuwa treated me like he's favorite kid. i love my parents though, i love them and i don't want to lose them like i felt for amatuwa. they are my strenght. and i pray to God that He will blessed my parents for their goodhealth. i will do anything for them. May God bless my family. i couldn't talk to my amatuwa coz he's already dead. but i know God is watching and knows everything that anyone cannot. this blog helps me a alot to feel free whenever i don't talk to anyone. i hope readers will get some thing good from my blog.

WHAT IS JIHAD? (HOLY WAR)

Posted Credit by Zaara from United Muslim World admin :) 

The media in the west has been sucked up into accommodating or reporting this false interpretation. 

“Jihad“ 

The Quranic Definition

One of the most manipulated concepts in Islam today is the concept of “Jihad”. 

The concept of “Jihad” is indeed a Quranic one, but sadly, a false and twisted version of this Quranic concept has been used by terrorists acting in the name of Islam to commit various terrorist acts. These terrorist acts, which occur all over the world, aim at the indiscriminate killing of innocent people. They are being undertaken in the name of “jihad”. These non-Islamic acts have gone a long way towards distorting the image of Islam. 

As with any religious concept, it’s correct definition lies in the scripture and not in the interpretation of humans. To fully understand the Quranic concept of Jihad, it is essential to address the following issues: 

1- The Quranic definition of the word Jihad 

2- What is “The Cause of God”? 

3- Does the concept of a “Holy war” have Quranic authorisation? 

FIRST: The Quranic definition of the word Jihad 

              The literal definition of the word Jihad is: striving to achieve a goal, while as the Quranic definition of the word is “striving with one’s self and one’s money in the cause of God”. 

This Quranic definition is confirmed in a number of Quranic verses which speak of jihad. The following are some examples: 

“The true believers are those who believe in God and His messenger, then attain the status of having no doubt whatsoever, and strive (jahadu) with their money and their lives in the cause of God. These are the truthful ones.” 49:15 

“Those who believe, and emigrate, and strive (jahadu) in the cause of God with their money and their lives, are far greater in rank in the sight of God. These are the winners.” 9:20 

“As for the messenger and those who believed with him, they eagerly strive (jahadu) with their money and their lives. These have deserved all the good things; they are the winners.” 9:88 

p.s. the word “jahadu” is the verb form of the noun “jihad. 

SECOND : The Cause of God 

               Now that we have established that Jihad means to strive with one’s self and one’s money in the cause of God, we need to determine what is the Quranic meaning of the phrase: “the cause of God”? 

Striving to uphold the “cause of God” simply means striving to uphold all God’s commandments and a strive to condemn all God’s prohibitions. Hence, a “Jihad” in the cause of God is a strive to preach and uphold God’s way and God’s Law. Since the word Jihad has been manipulated to advocate violence and the killing of innocent people, it is necessary to establish, with clear Quranic evidence, that the “cause of God” does not allow unlawful killing or violence. 

1- First, we must always be aware of the prime declaration in the Quran which states that God does not advocate sin: 

                "God never advocates sin. Are you saying about God what you do not know?" 7:28 

2- Following from that, the Quran states categorically that killing any innocent soul is a gross sin: 

"...... You shall not kill - God has made life sacred - except in the course of justice. These are His commandments to you, that you may understand." 6:151 "You shall not kill any person - for God has made life sacred - except in the course of justice. ....." 17:33 

The prohibition to kill any innocent soul has always been the law of God, in the Quran and in all previous scripture: 

"......, we decreed for the Children of Israel that anyone who murders any person who had not committed murder or horrendous crimes, it shall be as if he murdered all the people. " 5:32 

3- God does not allow fighting (war) except in the case of self defense:

" .......... If they leave you alone, refrain from fighting you, and offer you peace, then God gives you no excuse to fight them" 4:90 

"If they resort to peace, so shall you, and put your trust in God. He is the Hearer, the Omniscient." 8:61 “do not aggress; God dislikes the aggressors.” 5:87 

4- God commands that there will be no compulsion in religion: 

"There shall be no compulsion in religion ..." 2:256 

"You have your religion and I have mine" 109:6 "Had your Lord willed, all the people on earth would have believed. Do you want to force the people to become believers?" 10:99 

The commands in the above verses are very clear. The Quran confirms that belief must be attained voluntarily and not forcibly. If we are forced into becoming Muslims, there would be no credit due. The choice must be a voluntary one. 

"Proclaim: "This is the truth from your Lord," then Whoever wills let him believe, and whoever wills let him disbelieve" 18:29 

"You shall remind, for your mission is to deliver this reminder. You have no power over them" 88:21-22 

The message of no compulsion in religion is once again emphasised in the above Quranic words. 

5- Quran advocates pardon, forgiveness and tolerance: 

"You shall resort to pardon, advocate tolerance, and disregard the ignorant" 7:199 

"Tell those who believe to forgive those who do not long for the days of (meeting) God. He will fully pay everyone for whatever they have earned." 45:14 

The Quran condemns the killing or even the persecution of people merely because they embrace a different religion. The Quran mandates absolute freedom of religion among all people. Respect and mutual co-existence must be exercised with those of other religions. The Quran urges Muslims to treat such people kindly and equitably: 

"God does not enjoin you from befriending those who do not fight you because of religion, and do not evict you from your homes. You may befriend them and be equitable towards them. God loves the equitable." 60:8 

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As all the above verses indicate, the Quran is clear in prohibiting all violence, unlawful killing and also forcing others into Islam. 

Attacks on civilians and on innocent people around the world by these terrorist groups is a violation of all the verses quoted above. This is an act that is condemned by all religions including Islam. 

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THIRD : Is there such a thing as a “Holy War” in the Quran? 

Various terrorist groups portray “jihad” as a “holy war”. The media in the west has been sucked up into accommodating or reporting this false interpretation. 

In the light of the Quran, there is no war which is holy; not under any circumstances. In fact, the whole text of the Quran promotes peace rather than war. The word Islam itself is a derivative of the word “salam” which means peace. 

There are times, and in specific circumstances, when the option of war is allowed. This stems from the fact that the Quran advocates opposition to aggression and oppression. And thus, in such circumstances war is allowed but only as an act of self defence, but never as an act of aggression. 

Whenever there is a possibility to avoid war, then this alternative, as long as it is reasonable, must be taken. 

"You shall prepare for them all the power you can muster, and all the equipment you can mobilize, that you may frighten the enemies of God, your enemies, as well as others who are not known to you; God knows them. Whatever you spend in the cause of God will be repaid to you generously, without the least injustice. If they resort to peace, so shall you, and put your trust in God. He is the Hearer, the Omniscient." 8:60-61 

"Permission (to fight) is granted to those who are being persecuted, since injustice has befallen them, and God is certainly able to support them. They were evicted from their homes unjustly, for no reason other than saying, "Our Lord is God." If it were not for God's supporting of some people against others, monasteries, churches, synagogues, and masjids - where the name of God is commemorated frequently - would have been destroyed. Absolutely, God supports those who support Him. God is Powerful, Almighty." 22:39-40 

The case made in the Quran for war, and perhaps the most important and often confused as a holy war, is the war “in the cause of God”. Fighting an oppressor or aggressor is fighting against oppression or aggression, thus it is fighting for justice and therefore in the cause of God. 

”You may fight “in the cause of God” against those who attack you, but do not aggress. God does not love the aggressors.” 2:190 

Clearly as the above verse states, fighting in the cause of God is a case of fighting an aggressor and thus is a case of fighting in self defense. 

Fighting oppression “in the cause of God” is also the subject of 4:75 

"Those who readily fight in the cause of God are those who forsake this world in favor of the Hereafter. Whoever fights in the cause of God, then gets killed, or attains victory, we will surely grant him a great recompense. Why should you not fight in the cause of God when weak men, women, and children are imploring: "Our Lord, deliver us from this community whose people are oppressive, and be You our Lord and Master." 4:74-75 

Thus it becomes clear that the concept of a strive “in the cause of God”, is not restricted to the case of fighting a war “in the cause of God”, it is also about striving with one’s self and one’s money in the cause of God. This could be a strive to spread the “way of God”, or even giving charity as per the words: 

“You shall spend in the cause of God; do not throw yourselves with your own hands into destruction. You shall be charitable; God loves the charitable.” 2:195 

The underlined words confirm the relationship between spending “in the cause of God” and having that money spent towards charitable causes. 

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To conclude, it is quite clear that the word “Jihad” has been badly manipulated by those with political aims, and in violation of the Quranic truth. The word “Holy” has never been used in the Quran in connection with war. There simply is no reference anywhere in the Quran for what they call “holy war”. 

There are times when war is permitted, but as we have seen in all the Quranic words, it is only permitted as a practice of self defence, and it is never called a “holy war”. Islam resolves around the concept of peace: 

"If they resort to peace, so shall you, and put your trust in God. He is the Hearer, the Omniscient." 8:61 

ZAARA .. :D